its the last day of this year. i did mention in a previous blog that I'd write a post somewhere around the end of this year and so here it is. here's my appreciation to everything good and bad that happened this year.
anushcache dropped a reel this morning about how one can "be more confident" and i couldn't relate more to it. looking back at my post from 2 months back i realise that i've been more confident than ever. its all about belief and execution. belief that you can actually do shit and execution to actually do shit.
the same attitude invites self-doubt and uncertainty but "take your time" and let it pass, you are your own enemy so cut down on all the negative opinions and become unapologetic, because the people who care and want to see you grow will stick around no matter what. even if you don't meet or talk to them daily or if you don't share the same interests, you have a mark in their memories.
learning life
i never happened to mention this before but i started writing journal blogs and going on evening walks because of a burnout that i had back in November when i fell sick (after almost a year).
it felt like i was too much into my own shit and that i didn't delve into the things around me. It was like I had trapped myself in a cycle of routine, grinding away without really experiencing anything. The burnout hit me like a wake-up call—my brain literally forced me to stop.
Starting journal blogs and evening walks wasn’t just about recovery; it became a way to reconnect — with my thoughts, with the world outside my head, and with the simple joy of just being. soon i started to notice people, how everyone is so different but yet still the same just because we all chase.
even i do chase things but i no more feel the pressure to measure my life against some universal timeline because, in the grand scheme of things, everyone was just running their own version of the same race. this made me feel different – but in a good way. i felt i deserved all the things i have, all the lows i faced, all the people that left, all the people that got introduced – i deserved it all.
new year resolution
new year resolutions are a fallacy for those who can't achieve theirs. my resolution for this year was to earn my first penny, i was granted the opportunity 2 times - first one i wasn't able to really achieve (thanks to the extremely tough physics syllabus) and declined the second one for good reasons. its a superficial belief for majority of people.
resolutions are often treated as equivalent to goals, which indeed is true. but what most don't realise is that its not the goals that are to be chased but the habits that need to be built overtime.
the farewell
its always a nervous feeling during the new year. new people come around, old people leave, some still stick around and thus, the weird feeling of starting a new year is kinda scary. to conclude, i just want to deeply thank to everything that happened this year, trust me when i say that "i wouldn't change a thing if gotten a chance". starting the new year i have a lot that i want to write about and i definitely will!